Dream

When they dream where do they go,
do they see some one they like or go somewhere they know.
Do they dream of happy or dream of sad,
do they dream of experiences that they have had.
Do they dream of things that they will do,
or do they dream a dream that they hope will come true.


When they dream where do they go,

Wouldn't we all love to know.

Pushing back the invading force

I am not talking about a military campaign, I am talking about the three forces that I have been fighting against and am now on the edge of winning the battle.

The first force was Athletes foot.

My tactics for defeating this are.

Shower first thing in the morning and wash between each toe with soap.
Get out of shower and dry between each toe first with a towel and then after use toilet paper to dry between toes.
and then I use Daktarin cream and rub in between infected area.

I repeat this process at night also.


Second is a rash that I got from a cream that I used for my feet before Daktarin.
I got blisters on my fingers , it almost looked like I have been burned all over my hands.
I have been using a cream for that also that my mother advised me to use and he bumps and lumps are slowly going down.

the third is a cold, this is the least worrying of the three, I know that the cold will go away by it's self sooner or later, but it is still a pain to have a cold while dealing with the other two.

So I have reached the point with the three that I am starting to win over them the athletes foot has now almost stopped itching and the area that the skin is raw is now starting to heal.

My bumps and lumps are going down and don't hurt anymore, and I think that they will be gone by Friday...I hope.

and my cold while still there is not as bad now ,
How dare these things try to invade my body. I'll show em

Kids having kids

I just thought I would write this post as a topic of conversation, but it seems that more and more kids are having kids, I call them kids meaning they are what I consider to young to have children them selves.

It was in the news a few months ago a 14 year old and a 15 year old had a baby, how can this be.
How can some one so young and inexperienced in life possibly raise a life?. They haven't even lived to have a full school career.

While I can live with the idea that they would love the child and try their best to do a good job, I have trouble accepting that they have had enough life experience to look after them selves properly never mind a baby who demands constant attention and care.

It was also in the news just the other day that a young couple who had a child Had the baby lay and die right in the same room from I think it was brain damage and do you know what the parents where doing, are you ready for this.... They were playing on their Xbox 360. That poor little thing who had never done anything to anyone and depended on some one to help it through life and probably lay their crying for help died because the parents considered a stupid games console more important than a little life. I have never before had a lump in my throat through writing a post before but as I write about this and think of that poor little life who died it makes me sad and angry at the same time.


Please please please don't let things like this happen, life is so precious and deserves the the full attention and love of anyone who brings a life in to the world.

What I have been up to

I have been so very busy lately with work, I have been working as many hours as possible to save as much as I can to go see my Jenn, I set off in just 33 days now and I am so looking forward to been with her again and I will be writing about our adventures on here .

I have everything done apart from booking the train and my travel insurance but I always leave those two things till last. I have noticed that every time I do book my flight that there is a new security system of some sort in place that I have to fill out, but I guess it's a good thing.

I have also been keeping up with my jogging and even pushing my self to get a better time , I am now at a average of 22 minutes for 2.3 miles, I know it sounds like it's not so far but the entire jogging route is all up hill and I run it after a 8 hour shift, I do feel better for it but however it has had a rather bad affect on my feet.

I have caught athletes foot on both feet, I am not tackling the situation and have brought it under control with the help of my mother who was a nurse for 40 years. at one point it got quite bad through no fault of my own. I had a cream that I was using and was moving the athletes foot rather well. I ran out of the cream and had to get some more but there was none of the cream I had been using so I had to get a different one.

The new cream had devastating affects, I had some kind of a reaction to the new cream. My hands blistered and I got a rash. it was quite pain full and after a few days I had to stop using the cream, today is my first day back on the old cream. my hands still have the blisters on them but they should go down in a couple of days as soon as the old cream is completely out of my system.

apart from that life is good, I miss my Jenn so much every day and I am counting the days till I get there, I hope that who every reads this post is doing well and having a great day.

Damned if I do and damned if I don't

Living with my mother and my niece Natalie really wonderful when things are going right, but however every so often they do have a difference of opinion and that's when things get very complicated for me. I love them both and I hate to see them arguing over things that are usually so simple and silly but are life and death to them both, I honestly expect them to take ten paces turn and shoot at each other some times.

But yesterday they got in to quite a heated argument over something that always causes a rift in anything Money I sat and listened to the argument as it got worse and worse, I had taken the decision to not take action and get involved because if I took sides then the opposite side would blame me for taking sides. I just looked at my laptop and stayed quiet.

eventually my name was called and I was asked a question and my response was
" Keep me out of this one".

The argument ended with my mother storming off upstairs and Natalie sat watching tv. both were still mad.

The next morning Natalie had gone to see her boyfriend, which was part of the source of the argument. and my mother was sat in the chair. My mother looked at me and I asked her how she was and she said she was ok but was annoyed at me because I didn't stand up for her in the argument last night. I told her that I wouldn't get involved in such a silly argument that would only end up getting me the blame if I took sides with either one of them.

So mom was mad at me for not taking her side and Natalie while I hadn't seen her on this day was probably annoyed with me also for not taking her side and I was getting in trouble for staying out of it too, so as my title for this post says,

I was damned if I did and I am damned if I didn't so while there was no winner and a loser between those two it seems that I can do nothing but loose in this one, but I would rather loose knowing that I didn't help either one to win than lose knowing that I had helped one win other the other.

A nightmare.

Last night I had a bad dream, I hate having bad dreams.

I had a dream that I was stood in a house and I was looking out of a window in the house , it was day time and the sky was clear.

suddenly there was a shaking of the earth and a giant crack appeared in the land and a great plume of smoke black as night was rising from the earth and completely covered the sky until day became night.

the house I was in began to shake but stood firm and did not claps but seemed to almost be like a place of safety for me.

and that's when I woke up.

It was a strange dream.

I never saw it coming

This is a blog about my niece Natalie.
who has just had a really bad day and I feel so sorry for her.

This story begins just before I got back from seeing my beautiful Jenn.
My niece Natalie was living with her boyfriend and they were living with my niece Naomi who has her own place. They had been living there since just before I had gone to be with my Jenn and as far as I knew everything was going well.

When I landed back in England I stopped by to see my sister Jane before going back to my mothers house. my sister told me that Natalie and her boyfriend had had a argument of some kind with Naomi and that they were now living with me and my mother.

So in a two bedroom house there were five people now, me my mother Natalie baby Marcus and Natalie's boyfriend. This situation could not carry on for very long and Natalie and her boyfriend were told that they situation was temporary and they needed to find a place as soon as possible.

a few weeks rolled by and then they found a place that they could both move in to, Natalie's boyfriend "PAID" the deposit and they were told that they could move in on the 16th of August.
Notice I have put the word paid in caps, the reason for this is that it is important later on in the story.

The 16th came and I was at work, I was fully expecting to come back and they would have moved out, I got a message from my mother saying, Wayne red alert please call asap.
This sent me in to a panic, I called straight away. Mom told me that apparently the builders in the flat that Natalie and her boyfriend were going to move in to had found a leak and it would take them another week to fix it.

I must admit that this got my suspicion raised, surly private land lord wouldn't put a flat on the market for rent if they had a leak. and that started to raise more questions in my mind. Why couldn't they move in straight away? they had paid their deposit so surly they could move in.

I couldn't help but think that something just wasn't adding up
it seemed that every time they were due to move out, things kept going wrong. and I even said to them that if I was in their shoes I would have asked the flat owner why things kept going wrong and that I would tell him that if anything els went wrong I would ask for my deposit back and give it to some one who had a flat ready to move in to immediately, if they have paid the money then surly that have rights.


but we carried on as normal and every thing seemed ok, they had got a date they could move in again. the days rolled by and soon enough came the date for them to move out. I was at work and again and yet another message from my mother asking me to call.

When I called this time Natalie's boyfriend had said that they had found yet another problem with the flat and that they would have to wait again. I couldn't believe it. this sounded to me like they had paid their money to a con man looking to make money out of innocent people like my niece and her boyfriend.

I told my mother we would have to talk about it when I got back to the house. I finished my shift and got back to the house and it's here where the story takes a sinister twist. I got in to the room and my mother was sat with Natalie and her boyfriend. she told me that she had gotten Natalie's boyfriend to admit that he had been lying about the flat, he finally said to me that the deal had fallen through a while ago but he had been to afraid to mention it and that he was sorry he hadn't said anything before.

I looked at him and I said to him that it took guts to look some one in the eye and admit that they had been lying to them. I thanked him for been honest with me, both me and my mother then told them they they must look for a place and move out withing two weeks or we would have no choice but to send them some where els. me and my mother only have a small two bedroom house and with all five of us living under the same roof it wasn't fair to anyone.

They agreed and promised to start looking the next day.
The next evening came and I had got back from work and there was great news. Natalie and her boyfriend had got a viewing for a place, they were told they could move in as soon as they put down the deposit on the place. Natalie's boyfriend told us they he got paid on a Tuesday and that they would be moving out on that day right after he had finished work.

Finally the big day came and everything was going according to plan, my niece had her bags packed and was waiting with baby Marcus to hear from her boyfriend via text that he was on his way back and they could finally move in together.

I had just got ready for work, I heard the door go and it went very quiet down stairs. I walk down stairs to find my mother sat in her chair with baby Marcus. Natalie had rushed out. I asked my mother what had happened and she said that she felt something was wrong because Natalie had got a message on her phone and when she read it she went gave Marcus to my mother and went to get some credit for her phone so she could make a call.

I too felt that there was something not quit right. I walked the long way round to work in hopes that I would see Natalie. I walked round and saw Natalie at the phone box, she had sent a message to her boyfriend. I asked her if everything was ok and she said that every thing was fine, but she seemed like she was hiding something, perhaps it was the excitement of moving out.

I went to work and had a busy day, I didn't really have time to call my mother.
I got back to the house to find my mother in her chair glancing to the side. I looked at where she was looking to see that Natalie was laid on the sofa with a coat over her to keep her warm. she was very quiet .

I sat next to her and asked her what had happened. she sat up and told me that her boyfriend had gone to work as normal and when she had gone to the phone box that something was bothering her and she had not said anything because she felt embarrassed about it.

I told her that my mother had told me that she had got a text and that's when she had gone running out. and when I asked Natalie what the text message said, she told me that it was from her boyfriend and it said.

I'm not coming back.

My great nephew Jack's first birthday.

As the title to this post says, it was my great nephew Jacks first birthday on the 1st of September 2010.

He is such a great little guy and I wish him all the best for all the wonderful years and times of his life.

I took some pictures for you all to see.

Here is the little man him self.

Yummi


I wanted to have a go at this thing, looks like a lot of fun.

and here is me and the man of the hour.